Happy Mothers Day!

I am not a mother (yet), but I am a daughter. I am pretty sure my mom knows how much I appreciate her, but it's always nice to have a day that we can take the time out to do something special for our mothers.

I also know that one day this special day will be much different when I do have kids and I am a mother. But, the timing isn't right now. If my life had been as I had planned it, I probably would have a child right now, but luckily, God had a different plan. For one reason or the other, we have put off trying to start a family. But, I think it was all for a good reason, and now I see why. CC is starting a new career. A tough career to add to that. He's gone, we're adjusting, and it's difficult. I can't even imagine how hard this transition would be with kids.

• We went from a very consistent schedule to a now unpredictable schedule. This is difficult for me to adjust to, I know it would be difficult to adjust with a family on top of that.
• CC and I are working out how to get our needs taken care of with the different shifts and time away, and once again, I can't imagine how it will be once kids are in the picture and we have to balance both at the same time.
• CC needs time to himself and to just relax when he gets in for the weekend which would be very difficult to manage if there were children.

I will be a mother, and when the timing is in God's time, it will happen. But, even though I want a child, I am thankful that I'm not a mother yet. This time in our life is hard enough on our marriage, I can only think how different it would be with a family. I don't know how all of you cop wives do it with kids. I'll learn, and I guarantee I will be asking all kinds of questions when it's that time! (So you better answer them!)