Que Pasa?

CC has 2 1/2 weeks left!! YIPPEE! The days are going by! If you had asked me about 2 months ago if this thing ever seemed like it would end, I would've given all kinds of sarcastic answers and you would have been overwhelmed by my fake enthusiasm. But now, 16 days away from the time that the love of my life graduates from Police Academy, the thoughts are completely different. Don't get me wrong, I've always been proud of him, but it seemed like such a hassle that we had to be apart for so long and just all of the added stress to our relationship because of this. We knew we'd make it through it. We knew it would go by quickly. What we didn't know were the types of arguments that would occur. We didn't know the type of struggles we would face that we don't normally face when he's around. What we didn't know was that we could be brought closer together because of all of this.

I have a new-found respect for my husband. I can see how hard-working he is. I also have seen him strive to be the very best. I can see him being successful and fulfilled, and that is enough for me. It is one thing to have a husband that has a job, but it's another to have a husband that loves his job.

Enough about that -

CC started Spanish this week! It's been pretty hilarious. What gets me even more is that they started teaching words and phrases on Monday of this week, and he already had a test and practical on it!! After a day and a half! What can you really learn in that short amount of time? It's very interesting to me.

We live in TX, where of course we're getting a large influx of Spanish speakers. CC said that his instructors said that most people who speak Spanish will listen to you and cooperate with you even if you don't get the conjugation. Or if you just use a simple word instead of constructing a whole sentence. This doesn't seem like it would be the case to me, but I guess it is. I teach in a bilingual school, and so I encounter somewhat uncooperative Spanish speakers pretty regularly, and one word sentences don't work for me very well. But, then again, they are children. I don't know. I think all of this just makes me hope that this will get CC on a nice little train to get his Spanish up to par so he can communicate appropriately with Spanish speakers.

My excuse is that the school wants them to be forced to learn English, and what better way than to refuse to speak Spanish! :)

Phones Suck

(This is just me venting, BEWARE!)

For 120 days now, CC and I have been communicating by phone during the week. CC is not really a good phone talker. How on Earth did we have a long distance relationship for 2 1/2 years before we got married? And we only saw each other once a month?! And I still married him?! I don't know.

I'm beginning to wonder, how in the World are we going to be able to get through this career when it is quite possible that we won't see each other a lot due to differences in schedule?? I guess I just have to have faith that we can get through it. This is just really frustrating.

29 days!

Happy Mothers Day!

I am not a mother (yet), but I am a daughter. I am pretty sure my mom knows how much I appreciate her, but it's always nice to have a day that we can take the time out to do something special for our mothers.

I also know that one day this special day will be much different when I do have kids and I am a mother. But, the timing isn't right now. If my life had been as I had planned it, I probably would have a child right now, but luckily, God had a different plan. For one reason or the other, we have put off trying to start a family. But, I think it was all for a good reason, and now I see why. CC is starting a new career. A tough career to add to that. He's gone, we're adjusting, and it's difficult. I can't even imagine how hard this transition would be with kids.

• We went from a very consistent schedule to a now unpredictable schedule. This is difficult for me to adjust to, I know it would be difficult to adjust with a family on top of that.
• CC and I are working out how to get our needs taken care of with the different shifts and time away, and once again, I can't imagine how it will be once kids are in the picture and we have to balance both at the same time.
• CC needs time to himself and to just relax when he gets in for the weekend which would be very difficult to manage if there were children.

I will be a mother, and when the timing is in God's time, it will happen. But, even though I want a child, I am thankful that I'm not a mother yet. This time in our life is hard enough on our marriage, I can only think how different it would be with a family. I don't know how all of you cop wives do it with kids. I'll learn, and I guarantee I will be asking all kinds of questions when it's that time! (So you better answer them!)

Mean Guy?

CC is working on DWIs this week and learning how to deal with them. I find it very interesting the steps to take during these situations. However, what is more interesting is the type of approach CC has been taking on his stance of arresting.

Now, believe me, I think rules should be followed and enforced. But, isn't there a time for a little leniency?? I'm beginning to think that CC may be a mean cop, even though I know he's a nice guy. He was the only one, out of the 9 in his class, that thought all 5 of their "testers" should be arrested, even though not all of them were over the legal limit. He is very much by the book, as am I most of the time, but as a teacher, I also know that there are cases that sometimes change the book occasionally. When CC would bring up different situations they were discussing, he would normally come out more on the harsh end of a charge as opposed to a lower charge. But now, I think I'm noticing it more just because it's become a recurring situation.

Did anyone else have this happen to their cop during Academy? Does it stay this way?

I know CC is a nice guy, in fact his mom has always said he's the nicest guy she knows. I just hope that he finds a happy medium when it comes to being a cop in the real world!

There is Light!

The end of the tunnel is getting closer! We are now down to counting days instead of weeks! We will only have to be apart during the week for 6 more weeks! That's it! 6! I can do this!

My husband is amazing. He's been awesome this last week with his talking, encouragement, and just being there knowing how this situation sucks right now. God gave me a great man! Probably the best! (I'm a little biased though!)

The conversations these days have been very interesting. It really feels like he's a police officer. He knows how to handle different situations. He not only has facts, but he has practical knowledge. He does still point out little problems with people occasionally, but I can forgive that for now! He's awesome!

I may not have "signed up" up for this lifestyle (being a cop's wife) when we got married, but I am grateful that God has taken us through this. I truly think this is what CC was meant to be. I think he found his calling. And I'm proud to be a part of it. It's hard. Already. And I know it's going to get harder, especially when kids come into the picture, but it's so worth it.

PS: This weekend CC finally realized the shuffle driving was getting on my nerves, so he didn't do so much of it! It also helped that I didn't let him drive my new car because I didn't like how he was driving, so maybe he kind of realized that his "tactical" driving is a little obnoxious! :)

PSS: I have to make a correction about his "top driver" status: He qualified for top driver by 4 hundredths of a second, but in the final round actually won by over .5 a second!! Sorry babe!