Monday, November 30, 2009

Time Flies

(I'm beginning to think I'm a once a month blogger instead of my intent of being a once a week blogger!)

Tomorrow is December. I can not believe that 2009 is coming to an end. This time last year, my husband began the journey of becoming a police officer. I was informed of CC's dream that I never knew he had. At this time last year, I was still in shock and trying to understand what was about to happen.

Then, began the crazy application process. I am thankful that the process is so diligent, but it can also be so heart breaking. We put our whole selves out there. We put all of the baggage we have, all of the mistakes we've made, out there. And for a while, to only be rejected.

I remember this time last year being in a state of prayer. I wanted to understand. I wanted to support. I wanted to be the wife I was called to be for my husband. And with God's help, I believe I'm there.

In a little more than a month, my husband will be in Police Academy.

That blows my mind, first of all, but it also seemed like this time would never get here. He got hired by his agency in June, with the terms that he would wait 6 months to leave for academy. It wasn't an ideal situation, but it was a job and it was obviously the place that God felt he needed to be.

Life has changed. This year has been full of adjustments. This year has been full of learning and a lot of questions. I'm a planner and a controller. This year has been hard. If anything, God has allowed me to stop planning so much and stop trying to control situations. Through my husband's new career path, I have become a better person.

I know it will be hard. I am still learning all of the ropes. I will always be learning the ropes. I have found this job is not one you can become comfortable with. But, with God's strength, I will be much better.

Hebrews 13:6 - "The Lord is my helper; I will not fear; what can man do to me?"

I'm excited to see what the next year holds for us. It will be a big one I'm sure!

2 comments:

  1. Best wishes to your husband in the academy. I think the time will go quickly and he will enjoy it.

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  2. Leah I commend you on your positive outlook! I was raised by a Cop and have been married to one for 8 years. While I feel there is no more honorable job than that of a Police Officer, there are hardships that come with years on the job. As wives, it becomes harder and harder to remain supportive of someone who is rarely around and who has become so cynical that there is little joy left in his life. My best advice to you is to keep your Christian heart in tact and stay close to your Heavenly Father. You will no doubt need him more than ever as you and your husband advance through his career. I highly suggest reading "I Love A Cop" and "Cops Don't Cry" so you can BOLO (be on look out) for changes that will creep up on you. While your support of your husband is imperative to the success of your marriage, you must be careful not to lose yourself. God will watch over you!

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